Different Thoughts

There are so many points of view. Just think; nobody in the universe sees things exactly how you see them. What if when you looked at a cat, another person looked at the same thing and called it a tree? And how would you even know what they were really seeing? The scary thing about this world is that we ALL have our own individual brains with trillions of thoughts, and we all have to ability to say or do anything we feel like doing. You could walk into school completely naked, if you felt like doing that. I could punch a teacher in the face at free will. Yes, there would be consequences, but I have the ability to do anything I want. All of these people have the decision to do anything they want throughout their minutes, hours and days, yet we follow strict rules we are given. "Ask before you go to the bathroom." When in reality you could just walk out without asking. Why don't people do what they want?

I, personally would have a much more meaningful life if nobody tried to tell me what to do. The way I see it, if you aren't hurting anyone or animals, you should be able to do whatever you want. Stupid laws are made to keep mankind in its place under strict control and surveillance. Most people nowadays think money is a necessity for survival, so we spend our lives competing for money. I think as long as we got a nice bottle of wine and a few close people, we can't go wrong. 

There are so many beliefs and theories about the world, and there's no way they could all be 100% true. I think they all tie together in one way or another. I think bits of each idea make up the bigger picture. But then again, we never really know. Is there a God? I certainly believe so. Do we reincarnate and have past lives? Maybe. But everyone thinks things differently, therefore they see things differently. And these laws just cramp the uniqueness of our people's styles. 

Everything's A Mess

Schoolwork has always been easy for me to get done. I have missed more school this year than ever before, and I still manage to maintain my grades. Although schoolwork is easy for me, it's definitely another thing I need to keep in mind. Something that must be done. I have so much going on besides school, it seems so hard to have to keep up on my grades when in reality, it's the least of my concerns. I guess it's just another thing to add to the list.

My family is going through a lot right now, like way too much. Not going into detail, but my mom and her boyfriend just broke up and she's having a terrible time adjusting to single parentage. I love my mom right to death, but I feel as if I cannot express when I'm personally upset because she has so many of her own problems that mine just add to the jumble. My older brother can't even live with us for the time being because our support system is so out of whack. 

My social life has drastically decreased since I moved to this lame town. You don't realize how hard it is to make new friends until you realize you're perfectly fine with your old ones. I don't feel right getting through high school with these kids, when my I have watched my best friends grow up in Bangor every year. I have moved to 4 different schools since head start, but moving during high school has definitely been the hardest to cope with.

There is barely anywhere to apply for a job in Bucksport. The few places available are nice, but it's less likely I'll get hired since so many people are on look-out for jobs during this economy drop, especially new teenagers. I work at McDonald's but I never go, because I hate it there. If I can't find another job I'm going to stay there unfortunately, because money is money.

Persons Unknown

My favorite show is called Persons Unknown. It starts out with a woman and her daughter at the park. The woman gets side tracked and when she looks back up she can't find her daughter so she goes looking for her. I was hooked into the show within the first 10 minutes. 
So anyways, the woman gets abducted by these two men in blue uniforms. When she is conscious again she is laying in a hotel bed, alone. They hotel room is locked, the shutters are down and there's a camera in the corner of the ceiling. The woman screams for help, and finally someone comes to the door and breaks it down. It's a middle-aged man named Joe. Joe explains that he doesn't know where he is, as well as this woman, Janet, and they leave the hotel room in search of other people. In total there are 7 people in the random hotel and they are all confused. Cameras are on every ceiling of every room, including the hallway. When the 7 people figure out how to get outside of the hotel, they find themselves in an abandoned town with about 12 buildings. The only available food source is a Chinese restaurant. The 7 people search the police office for an officer to explain or help the situation. Inside, they find another man, who holds them hostage. They think he's working for the people in the blue uniforms, but it turns out he's just another one of them. The 7 people go to the Chinese restaurant for dinner and everyone got a specific fortune cookie afterwords. Janet's fortune was most significant, it said "Kill Joe and you'll go home". Janet is very tempted to do this because she needs to take care of her daughter, but ends up not doing it because she has feelings for Joe. 

Stupidest Story Ever

Once upon a time, there was a little girl who lived with her parents. Her parents always gave her a roof over her head, and she had her dog so she was never lonely. But her parents were insane, and didn't know how to listen or take care of her. The little girl knew she was lucky with what she had, but she still felt the need to talk to someone. One day, the little girl went for a walk in the city. She had her dog walking beside her, free, how everything was. They walked for miles until the little girl realized she was thirsty. If she was thirsty, her dog probably was too! She stopped at Hannaford, brought her dog inside because she was allowed to do that, and grabbed a water bottle. She thought to herself how lucky she was that everything was free, for she had no money left. The little girl and her dog drank up, then continued their walk. The girl saw an ice cream truck behind Hannaford and she went to it. Working behind the counter was the most handsome young man she had ever seen. This young man was smiling at the little girl and he asked her if she wanted ice cream. "I don't have any money, I'm sorry." The little girl frowned and looked down at her dog, who really wanted his own ice cream cone. The young man said, "You can have two free ice creams, of course. But you must do something for me, we must go on a date." The little girl thought about if her parents would be mad if she didn't come right home after the walk, and then she said "Yes, I will go on a date with you," when she realized this may be an excuse to talk to someone. "Great. But first," said the young man in the ice cream truck, "what is your name?" The little girl looked confused. She thought for a second, and then said, "I don't have a name. My author wrote me in as 'the little girl'." 

My Babe

Casey Alan Kettell and I met on Omegle when I was in 7th grade. I was with my friend, Abby, eating some dank chicken and Casey told me to add him on Facebook. I went to add him, and it turned out we were already friends. We started dating on March 11, 2014. Casey is a very positive person, which balances out my negativity. I hate everything but he loves everything. He makes me think happier thoughts and we always try new things together, like learning how to play chess, hiking, and sleeping on our "secret" beach.

Casey loves eating but he hates making food. I spend like 35% of our time together making him spam or chicken. My boyfriend is the nerdiest person, he plays video games all day everyday and has a dog named Thor, named after the God. Casey plays piano, he is very talented. Sometimes he even plays it for me to fall asleep to. Babe's so sweet, he loves cuddling, Supernatural, and wants to be a state sheriff.


On my birthday, he brought the most beautiful bouquet of flowers to school for me. I had to carry them around for part of the day but it was worth it. They had my favorite colors and a big, beautiful vase. Casey really knows how to choose 'em.


My cousin Sky and I stole a cat from someone's house but I had nowhere to bring the cat, so Casey let me leave him at his house. We named him Pikachu. Pikachu was the best cat, he was like me and Casey's son. Besides those few months we thought he was possessed and we didn't go near him. But a few months ago he got hit by a car, and Casey and I's lives ended. Now we want another cat but it probably won't happen because Pikachu ruined it for us.

Time Flies Before Anything Changes

I remember playing outside every day like it was yesterday. I remember one day in particular when I was digging in the dirt for diamonds, and I obviously didn't find them, but I was pretty damn determined. 

My brother, Justin, and I would dig in the dirt as deep as we could, trying to get to "Pokemon World". We never did end up there.

Instead, we dealt with my mother's boyfriend drama for 14 years. My mom is a very nice lady, but she does not know how to choose men. She literally chooses the most insane men on the planet. Like, the craziest men. 

Whether it be from doing U-turns in the middle of the highway, or simply sneaking the dogs into a no-pets-allowed hotel room, he has always been up to no good. He is a very bad influence for my mother. 

So yeah, we would deal with Brian's bullshit, he has always been the biggest egotistic person and he always thought he was the strongest person alive. If you're wondering about him now, yes he is still just as egotistic and insane. My mom is still trying with this douche bag, and Justin and I are still hoping to end up in Pokemon World, or anywhere away from here. 

I'm hoping that someday, Brian will disappear and I will open my eyes to see that I am on a different planet with Pokemon, maybe even my mom and brother, but certainly not my step-father. 

Now here I am, almost seventeen years old, and my Brian is still ignorant. My mom is still in bad hands, my brother is still a Pokemon lame, and I'm still wishing Brian would disappear and a wild Pikachu would take his place. 

(Besides the dating part, Pikachu is too sexy for my mom)