Different Thoughts

There are so many points of view. Just think; nobody in the universe sees things exactly how you see them. What if when you looked at a cat, another person looked at the same thing and called it a tree? And how would you even know what they were really seeing? The scary thing about this world is that we ALL have our own individual brains with trillions of thoughts, and we all have to ability to say or do anything we feel like doing. You could walk into school completely naked, if you felt like doing that. I could punch a teacher in the face at free will. Yes, there would be consequences, but I have the ability to do anything I want. All of these people have the decision to do anything they want throughout their minutes, hours and days, yet we follow strict rules we are given. "Ask before you go to the bathroom." When in reality you could just walk out without asking. Why don't people do what they want?

I, personally would have a much more meaningful life if nobody tried to tell me what to do. The way I see it, if you aren't hurting anyone or animals, you should be able to do whatever you want. Stupid laws are made to keep mankind in its place under strict control and surveillance. Most people nowadays think money is a necessity for survival, so we spend our lives competing for money. I think as long as we got a nice bottle of wine and a few close people, we can't go wrong. 

There are so many beliefs and theories about the world, and there's no way they could all be 100% true. I think they all tie together in one way or another. I think bits of each idea make up the bigger picture. But then again, we never really know. Is there a God? I certainly believe so. Do we reincarnate and have past lives? Maybe. But everyone thinks things differently, therefore they see things differently. And these laws just cramp the uniqueness of our people's styles. 

Everything's A Mess

Schoolwork has always been easy for me to get done. I have missed more school this year than ever before, and I still manage to maintain my grades. Although schoolwork is easy for me, it's definitely another thing I need to keep in mind. Something that must be done. I have so much going on besides school, it seems so hard to have to keep up on my grades when in reality, it's the least of my concerns. I guess it's just another thing to add to the list.

My family is going through a lot right now, like way too much. Not going into detail, but my mom and her boyfriend just broke up and she's having a terrible time adjusting to single parentage. I love my mom right to death, but I feel as if I cannot express when I'm personally upset because she has so many of her own problems that mine just add to the jumble. My older brother can't even live with us for the time being because our support system is so out of whack. 

My social life has drastically decreased since I moved to this lame town. You don't realize how hard it is to make new friends until you realize you're perfectly fine with your old ones. I don't feel right getting through high school with these kids, when my I have watched my best friends grow up in Bangor every year. I have moved to 4 different schools since head start, but moving during high school has definitely been the hardest to cope with.

There is barely anywhere to apply for a job in Bucksport. The few places available are nice, but it's less likely I'll get hired since so many people are on look-out for jobs during this economy drop, especially new teenagers. I work at McDonald's but I never go, because I hate it there. If I can't find another job I'm going to stay there unfortunately, because money is money.